Setback...:(

Just an update on my Dad...my Mom called me yesterday with news that the surgery had been cancelled. Apparently, the CT scan showed nodules in his ribs and a spot in his pelvis...a question of metastasis (cancer spreading). The doctor spoke of more tests and possibly chemo to shrink the nodes. My mother and I had a good cry together on the phone and she of course said that she and my father would discuss all options when they have more information. The thought of him going through chemotherapy at his age and health scares me to death, but it is totally his decision. He has an ultrasound today and Monday he has a total body bone scan. This is when they inject dye into you and look for "activity" in areas. If they see "activity" they do more tests in that area to look for cancer. He will get results on Tuesday. I'm staying over there with the boys on Sunday night so that I can babysit my neices on Monday so my brother or his wife don't have to take another day off....I'm happy to do whatever I can to help and to go up and spend some time with them.

I spent the day yesterday talking to my family and crying a lot. If feels like someone has knocked the wind out of you. I feel so bad for my father. It's so weird that you know without a doubt that you will lose your parents someday, and even if you are lucky that they have lived a good life, it still is so hard to comprehend..... My mother made me feel better by saying that it is almost a gift that we have this time (if it is really bad news..) to be together and support each other.

Thanks for all your prayers and good thoughts and please keep them coming.